PRIDE.....an ever mystical entity with many faces

Hello my Lovelies!

It has been a whole CENTURY since I've penned a blog but I'm back!  It's 2010, what a majestic number that seems.  A 'New Year' frought with all the expectation and hope it always brings.  Sometimes it doesn't bring that, sometimes it seems to loom threateningly around the next corner like the Boogyman and you feel only dread and trepidation. I wonder how yours feels? I always think, well okay, that's that year done, now let's see about this one. Like most things, it will be what we make it. In all honesty over the past month I've felt as though I've completely lost the plot. I was struck down in my high heels by a veritable Ninja Virus that lodged in my sinuses and continues to make camp. You bet I've done any and all good things to fight and kill it, alas and alack, to no avail. Resorting to antibiotics in the fourth week was a tough decision but one that seemed necessary.

  A week after finishing said sketchy drugs I remain sick.  I am functioning yet the phlegm children are still alive and well in my head.  We are pressing on regardless and continuing all efforts.  It can't last forever, right?  RIGHT.



So pride. I had a conversation with somebody who I hold excrutiatingly dear to my heart today about that very thing. Very tricky is pride. The way I see it there's pride and there's dignity. Dignity I'm a huge fan of, pride......not so much.

Taking pride in something is one thing, allowing pride to colour your behavior, something I am guilty of on many occasions, frowned upon.

Honesty.  Now there's one I'm eternally fond of.  Not always an easy choice but it's hands down almost (and I do say almost) always the right one.  Pride can sneakily weave its way around the truth and distort it or hide it altogether. 

For example, if you're witholding truths about yourself because you're embarassed by them and pride dictates you conceal them, things are most assuredly pear shaped.  The truth of the matter is that who you are is the one thing you must have pride in.  It doesn't matter about what you have, what you don't, or that you wish your situation were different.  The person you are IS the greatness and we must try our damndest to remember that as the reality. Never feel you have to apologize for who you are.  Being honest with dignity trumps pride everytime.  This beloved person I spoke to is a truly great woman.  She has struggled and faced many, many hurdles as have all of us.  She presses on.  She's hard on  herself, not really seeing all her wonderful triumphs at times.  There are small ones and big ones but they are many.  Worrying about how someone else may see her because of things that are not to her liking saddens me.  To me she is magnificent.  To an unknowing world she is magnificent.  That is the dignified truth.

Time for a New Year's Resolution?  Yeah yeah I know.....enough already with all that rubbish. But why not?  Here's one I'm going to strive for.  Focusing on my triumphs and letting the failures slip away. That is what will give you the balls to keep at it!   The fact that we have failed at something only means we tried.  It requires strength and courage and hope to make effort, all things to be proud of.  The results were not as we wanted?  Fine.  The fact that we aspired to something at all is a win.  And we continue to move forward, some days it's absolute shite.  You just can't be bloody bothered to make any more effort.  Other days it feels like 'I can do anything....or at least I can make a really epic effort toward it.'  The point of the matter is.....you are your best work, and there's a HELLUVA lot of greatness there.....take a moment and adjust your head space to the right channel.

Until next time.....stay strong and represent.  Here's a little snapshot of a rather peculiar gift my sister and I received Xmas Day.......they're 'juicers'.....you be the judge.